Thu 26 Dec 2002
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well, here we are again...
Maybe, your just better off alone.
Thats the way it seems sometimes, for some reason, I just cant seem to keep a relationship going strong,
And it always seems that its because "things are just too perfect",
What do they want?
Maybe I'm too nice.
Thats all I can figure... You'll always feel alone
But aomewhere... there's got to be somebody right for me.
And I'm not so hurt this time, which surprises me for some reason,
Maybe I just expect too much?
I'm too serious?
Too boring?
Seems to be fine at first, just kinda trickles off to nothing...
Is it my fault? She says that it's good that I'm not obbssed, that I'm not manic -depressive (even tho I know i am), that shehates that stuff, yet.....
She still holds on to Max....
Seems sometimes people can really be hypocrites.
Then again, so am I....
I hold on to people, lie to myself, tell myself it'll all be OK,
God how I hate this damn rollercoaster, I just wanna get off.
But I cant... I wont let myself off,
Sometimes, I'll realize it'll never work, I had my doubts at first,
But she just kinda grew on me, And I went and let myself get attached again, Dumbass.
I always do that, and when I thibnk about it... it's like I change.
When I get attached, I change. I think about it now, and I realize it.
Damn, maybe I'm fucked up more than I know...
or more than I let myself realize...