Death and Fame - Introduction
By lani 25 Dec 2001
i started this at work where the two topics have been occupying most of my thoughts. i’ve only been working six months and i’m already ready to throw myself back into school. and i think it’s because i lack a solid definition of when it’s going to be done. at least in school, you knew that if you pulled an allnighter or five, you’d be done for the semester, and after X amount of predefined credits you could graduate and have finished something…something. but things seem so infinite in the working world. when does it end? when do i finish? is it really about completion? the questions themselves go on and on.
the other complicaiton in my mind is Sept. 11. it was a glimpse into the finite. panick. turn around. going the wrong way. can’t cross the bridge. can’t get into a car accident. gas food water money news…and then the after effects. biosensor hype. <span class=”caps”>DARPA</span>. anthrax scares. people looking out the window everytime a helicopter flies overhead. flying.
so as someone lying in between atheist and agnostic, i find it difficult to find reasons to keep on ticking, which some of you may find trite…but something makes me feel like there is reason to re-examine it. can we run back to existentialism? does it still apply? and does it have the same context?
death and fame run hand in hand for me maybe because they are both ends. as well as topics surrounding my own question of self-motivation. and so, the solicitation.